It has been WAY too long since I last posted anything to this site.
While absent from this site, I have been considering the choice I laid out in my last post. To grow my career in what I do now, or pursue my dream job; to become a police officer.
I'd like to say that I spent a long time weighing the pros and cons of each before making a rational decision. But if I'm being really honest, my heart would only ever have allowed one decision. Every day I leave work with the feeling that my soul has gone numb proves to me that I made the correct one. As I am sure it surprises no one to read, I have chosen to fight for the career that I want.
Unfortunately, years of neglecting my physical fitness means that it will take time for me to be able to submit an application. For the last few months, I've been running with my sister twice a week to slowly build back my endurance. Its been a bit of an infuriating process for me because I used to be a cross country runner. While I am nowhere near the athlete I used to be, I am also not allowing this to discourage me and make me give up. Now that I've overcome the first hurdle of being able to motivate myself to get up a work out regularly, I just need to set up a better training plan.
My next step is to add weight training to my workout routine to build up my upper body strength. Once I can pass the physical test in order to get into the police academy, I'll start applying for the job.
My hope is that, by posting my decision here, I will have something to keep me motivated when I'm feeling lazy or drained. If my plans are out in the world, I will be more likely to stick to them rather than make excuses to continue following the easier path.
The road ahead of me will be log and difficult, but I still feel it is the best thing for me.
With any luck, I will have good news to post soon.